January 2011
4 posts
Maybe its because,
I never felt like you really noticed me for the past 2 or 3 years. Sometimes I could leave without you even knowing I was gone… or come home at 3 in the morning without you realizing I was late… or have 7 friends over without you even noticing we’re all downstairs making noise. Maybe its because before I couldn’t talk to you about anything because you were always with him....
If only,
if only I was good at making friends. even more important if only I actually enjoyed the people in my grade. how am I supposed to enjoy the fun senior things if I don’t have any friends to enjoy them with? I won’t and that sucks, because I know I’ll regret that later. But the only people I really enjoy the presence of are your friends but they aren’t my friends. :/ ugh...
It makes me feel like the night we’ll have together will mean nothing more than a night with a friend.
I just don't want to feel this way,
I wish I could lend you the way I feel for just a moment so maybe you could understand that it hurts.. so maybe you’d care..
I love you so much.