I am so lucky,
that you still love me. You are the most amazing guy I don’t know how I ever got lucky enough for you to even fall in love with me in the first place… I’ve thought from the moment I met you that you were way too beautiful for me inside and out, but somehow you still fell for me. I don’t deserve you. You are the sweetest guy I’ve ever met… You do everything for me and I only repay you by stabbing you in the back. How could I ever do that? You are the most important thing in my life. You were the only one who held me when I was at my weakest… the only one who wiped away the tears and made me strong enough to pull through. You were the first guy that ever made me understand what people meant by seeing fireworks when you kiss, and the only guy that ever made me feel that spark I’ve heard so much about. You are everything I’ve dreamed of for so long before I knew you and so much more. You are the only guy that I ever felt comfortable enough to let see every side of me… happy, sad, broken, weak, strong, confident and scared. Words could never explain how much I love you, every part of you. I could be happy with you no matter what we do, whether we just lay together and don’t say a word or whether we’re out having the times of our lives. It doesn’t matter to me just as long as you’re there. I’m so sorry I’ve hurt you. I hate myself for it. When I look in the mirror all I see is a hideous person. Hideous on the inside because I hurt you. I broke your heart, shattered it into pieces, I lost you’re trust, but for some crazy reason you still love me enough to stay with me and work it all out. I couldn’t be more thankful for that. I know I don’t deserve you now, but I promise you that I will work as hard as I can to become a person who does, a girlfriend you can be proud of. I hate who I’ve been the past 2 months and I promise you I will become better. I know my promises don’t mean anything now, but I will prove to you that you are the only guy I need. You’re the person I’m madly in love with and that is something I just couldn’t stand to lose.
